It has pretty much been a whirlwind this past week! We haven’t said much about what has been going on because it has seemed like there were a lot more unknowns than knowns but today things officially changed! Today we became a family of 6… pretty much over night! Last week we got a call that Jax’s birth mom had another baby and Jared and I thought we may have some decisions to make. This all has seemed a bit overwhelming and honestly we had just started to feel like we had a handle on the three kiddos so the thought of bringing a brand new premie baby home was a lot to think through. All week we prayed that if this wasn’t right for our family… if this was too much for us… that county workers would find a different place for him but that we decided that we wanted to open our home to Jax’s little brother if they needed us to. We also made that choice knowing that this sweet little one would start out strictly as a foster care situation and that this means we would be starting back at the beginning with this little guy. That means a TON more unknowns… That means a ton more risk. We made this decision knowing that this little guy needs us to be a safe place… this little guy needs us to be vulnerable to cover him in love…
When we first started going through this process originally we were open to twins or a sibling set just like this… so our license is actually for two kiddos under the age of 2… and we didn’t even really need to do much except set up the additional crib. We waited a few more days to find out if they would even place this sweet pea with us and Monday we got the call that they were going to place with us but that it was just a matter of time before we would get the placement phone call. Sure enough on wednesday we got the call that we would be able to go meet that sweet boy… We actually got to go to the NICU and hold him… stare at him as he slept… sing sweet lullaby’s to him… and take lots of pictures! Then today… today was the BIG day! Today we brought him home from the hospital!!! This is such a surreal experience especially because I feel like we haven’t really had a lot of time to mentally prepare for it.
We are pretty much absolutely in love with him already! I was filled with emotion today… pure delight as I actually caught a sweet smile of his on camera… I love snuggling this teeny tiny little snuggle bear… and I am so so so so thankful that we have gotten to share in his little story of life from the beginning. I am excited that Jax may have a biological sibling to do life with and I love that they will share that special connection. But in all of this excitement I am also a little bit sad… Today has been the reminder of all of the things that we didn’t get to share in with Jax… and sad that it took us almost 8 months for him to find his way home. I am grateful that he is here now and thankful for him in our family every stinking day!
Soooo Ryder was 9lbs 11oz when he was born… I pretty much felt like we brought a toddler home from the hospital… so this little guy seriously is amazingly little. I loved watching Jared love on him this week!
So thankful for him to be here with us… now let’s see how this first night goes… Sleep? who really needs that anyway?
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